Thanksgiving

Well after my early a.m. walkabout thanksgiving morning, the jester passed out.

And when at last I awoke, it was about 5 pm, and a good friend was pounding on my door, hung-over as all get out i answered and was informed that he was taking me home to have thanksgiving dinner.

People are awesome.

So, instead of a lonely thanksgiving meal of beans and rice, the jester got a meal with all the fixings, got to hang with friends and their kids... {why anyone would let me around their kids is a mystery, especially as i must have smelled of a distillery} truly great. And although I already thanked them I'll do it here on the blog again.. thank you.

When I got back to the apartment I got a call from the ex, see post 'Thus begins another series of pre-dawn posts', and it was the ex whom the jester is still missing. Turns out she's getting married.

Ouch.

The real problem here is I can't tell if I'm honestly concerned that she's rushing into something that serious in such a short period of time, or just intensely jealous that she's found someone else to love.

Who the hell knows.

At any rate, the jester is stuck in a weird head-space and doesn't quite see a way out.. oh well, a couple of days and my inner mechanisms will be back up and running in their version of normalacy.. or so I hope. Until then.. send a happy thought or two the jester's way...

Oh yeah, birthday's coming up on monday and that doesn't do much for my mood either... don't have any plans, blegh... I should just stop posting until after my birthday's done... because I don't want to be a whiny little turd.

At least at this age I've learned how to deal with momentary bouts of depression in a healthy manner......